someone like you.

letsfack:

All I want in my life right now is to find someone who I can text all day and never get bored with. Who at night, I stay up to talk to and lose sleep over. Someone who will call me and talk about their day, so I can tell them how shitty mine was too. I don’t care if I find you from my school, my town, or another state, I just want you to be there for me. In the end, I want someone who will miss me when I’m gone, not forget about me.

this could not be anymore, exactly what I want right now!

(via pleasepags)

today I am happy. tomorrow is another story.

if it feels as if i am pushing you away, you are 100% correct. this has gone on for far too long. nothing i do will or has ever changed anything. this is all up to you know. im throwing in the towel. 

I just want to lay back in my bed and cry. just lay there and sob. it’s been one of those days.

just wanted to tell you thank you for being there when I really need you… not!

I wish I could have a day where you spend it with me. where you don’t txt anyone back when we are together. cause that’s what your doing with your friends right now and it seems unfair.

haha i just laughed. i like how i have so many post on here saying i have to let you go, i dont deserve this, and i need to move on. but here i am, months later, and still crying over you. still holding on, still feeling this way. what is wrong with me!

i realized today that maybe we cannot be together. we see things too differently. i always feel like i have something wrong with me even when i try really hard to do the right thing. it shouldnt be this hard. we shouldnt fight like this. maybe we are finally realizing that love isnt enough. maybe we are realizing that it wont work. i can’t feel like this anymore. i can’t not be me. i want to change for the better, but  trying to change still isnt enough. it still causes the arguments. i act like this towards you because i love you. you are more then just a friend to me. i want to make time in my day instead of it just happening or not happening. time with friends are different then time with the person you love. your view on that is different. all time is the same. and i feel like i have a problem. i always feel this way. that is way i get so annoyed with my self. i have a problem.

I have to let you go. I don’t deserve this. if I mean as much to you as you say, you wouldn’t be doing this to me. you would never do this to anyone else. I get the hanging out with each other, but not, not talking to each other. you just wouldn’t do that to anyone else.

I want to talk to you. I want to so bad. but I know that I can’t because it will make things worse. I don’t want to annoy you. I don’t want to lose you. I feel like at some point you might lose me, and that scares me.

our love, our relationship is the hardest thing I have ever had to do. I love you so much and I should be glad that your in my life. I am. I am glad. just the hurt and the sadness of us not being together is what is getting to me. having you in my life should be enough. time will bring us back together. I believe in us.